My Awesomely Epic Benefit for those who dont know

So, for those of you who do not know the benefit was a complete and utter failure from what I wanted it to be. I worked for 6 months on this event, I stuffed bags, made baskets, baked cupcakes and brownies, designed web pages and advertisements. Basically I did everything I could think of to make this event happen and I only found support from a handful of people along the way and for that I am eternally grateful. I was surprised how many truly honorable people asked for my address to send me a check donation and then I never got it. I think perhaps the post office lost quite a few of my things. But that is not the point. The point is that the benefit was a lot like my wedding. I worked so very hard on it and then other people and circumstances fucked it up for me, but like my wedding I am very glad I did it. It is still hard for me to believe that the benefit is over and that I used $5000 and only made around $500. I had 13 paying people come to the event and ended up giving away the 50 pizzas I ordered. Almost all of the 52 baskets I made ended up selling for the opening cost of $20 or not selling at all (or I bid on them to get them started and ended up winning them.) You could have gotten $100s of stuff for $20 had anyone other than my sister bid online or shown up. However that too is not the point of this little typing escapade. I wanted to write out for myself about the benefit because I know that not many people pay attention to my posts, or my groups or messages. I know most people will not read this note but at least it is out there in case someone a few weeks down the line goes, oh yeah! I wonder how that benefit thingy went. Now they will know, it failed. So, many people keep telling me, it is not a failure and if I reached one person it was a success, which would be true if I had had one single young adult show up. Alas I did not. There is also another point to this note and that is that after spending an awesome day with Sachiko yesterday jus playing and having fun for once. I realized that I have not spent time having real no benefit thoughts attached fun in over 6 months. I need to work on my life for a while because if it was not for the stupid benefit I would be moved by now and out working a job I actually like. BUT I know that it is not in me to give up and so do all of you if you know me at all. So, I have already decided I am still going to accomplish all I wanted from the benefit (save 4 fat checks for the charities, instead I will have to give 4 super small ones but I know they will still appreciate them), and I am going to start it right away. What I am going to do is do my own fundraising for the goal of my benefit. SO, if you did not come to the event or did not bid and you feel bad about it, the best way to make it up to me is to work out how to work with me through my studio to make your Christmas/Chanukah/Kwanza gifts or event Birthday gifts. Or I can make you a custom Chemo pet, I now make them in the shape of animals or some objects too. So, IF you feel any of the above, please think about helping me with this current fundraiser. However, since I am no longer delusional, I do know that most of my friends on here will not read the note and those who do will more than likely not be able to help, but I am just very proud of me for at least attempting to still accomplish my dreams and not moping around in my I wasted $5000 on a stupid event no one cared about blues. So, for me I am already awesome. I am just awesome with no way of accomplishing my dream without the help of others, which means in laymen’s terms I am screwed.

Apology for being away for so long! Whats goin on you may wonder??

I am sorry I have not written on here in a long while. I have been so very busy with some big things in my life. I have been looking for an agent for the book and it has proved to be a difficult trek. I hope to find another one to queue shortly. I am also adding and updating pages for the website what feels like every day. Although the tags don’t look like it, it takes many days to make those pages, so I do hope you find them handy. I have always thought that my book was unique and that it could help all different kinds of people. It could open eye to an artistic way of looking at a cancer diagnosis and you could read about how staying realistically positive saved my life. However, I guess lots of people write books about cancer and they aren’t exactly best sellers so there is a lot of trepidation to pick up a cancer book, let alone a cancer art book with 89 pages of photos murals! So, I have been working on those two aspects, plus today was my last day, save final day, of my Japanese class I had been sitting in on for a refresher. It is so nice to hear and be forced to speak Japanese again. I truly love that language. I am also planning a cross country move to Seattle (more than likely) and have been struggling to figure out ways to make money, so I decided to sell a majority of my stuff on a Facebook Group here: http://www.facebook.com/note.php?saved&preview&suggest¬e_id=389792114591#!/group.php?gid=116470708364543&ref=ts and I am selling a cool fundraiser for anyone who is in the hospital a lot of travels a lot these little Chemo Pets (custom made and hand sewn!!): http://www.jettysbrainbook.com/Chemopets.html . I am also putting together a HUGE Yound Adult Cancer Awareness Benefit Concert/Silent Auction/raffle where part of the money will go to my 4 favorite groups! It is very daunting though and I find myself spending lots of time on research for it as well! It is going to be hard and going to take a lot of time but with 4 colleges in this area it is so very important that I get some information out to people. So, please forgive me for never writing! :-P I will try and be better but I am trying to keep all the pieces in my life from spiraling out of control! I am almost there, the strings are slowly breaking and I have to struggle to keep them together. If you want to help with my fundraising please click the links above and keep an eye out for the benefit news, I would love if you would spread it out everywhere!! Love Love Jettychan